Cus' if I drown, then you would say I gave up
But if I breathe, then you would say I'm selfish
I sail away, into the distance
I will not stay, if you won't miss this
I wanna float in orbit, escape all my shit
Give me a minute to forget, so many bad decisions I've regret
Good vibes only, me and me only
Nobody told me I would be lonely
Waking up by myself, another day of mental health
Feeling hungover, but I'm dead sober
Deep pain in my chest, as I roll over
I'm feeling, heavier than usual
Ignore this as usual, but this is unusual
Add more coffee to the cup, a spoon full
At the same time, thinking of my funeral
How can I be normal, and go to work and act formal
Anyway, choose a personality from the wardrobe
Which one should I pick, I've worn all those worn out faces, straps broke
Feeling happy for a day, watch the whole week spiral
Can't stand straight, must be something spinal
Exhausted from the highs and the lows
I'd rather stay baseline, than to go through those
Is this the life I chose
The life I chose
Cus' if I drown, then you would say I gave up
But if I breathe, then you would say I'm selfish
I sail away, into the distance
I will not stay, if you won't miss this
Or am I just a little pussy bitch, weak ass man
With dead end plans, someone who's failed at life
Missed out on having a wife, still doesn't see his daughter
Look at the things that I taught her, take my ego to the slaughter
Put my pride aside and watch the sun rise
I'm a brand new man, a brand new me, a brand new plan
I guarantee that I will succeed
And if you need a hand in me, confide in me
Feels good to be finally free, no longer confined in me
And I feel like I'm not an earthling, and I know that I'm not perfect
But I've got a lot of love to share, for the ones that deserve it
As the world's turning, there's a lot that I've learned and.
Max your my best friend and my big brother, Holly you're my sister and my second mother
Phillip helped me out when I had no other
And for a mother, I feel like i'v one but there's one other
Chris for keeping a grip and sticking this shit together
And keeping a cover from all of the thunder
And I thank you both for the man that I am, and I stand right where I am
Cus' if I drown, then you would say I gave up
But if I breathe, then you would say I'm selfish
I sail away, into the distance
I will not stay, if you won't miss this