the boy upstairs - cloud nine Lyrics

Uh, is it my fault cause I never take my time with love?
Too busy rushing it, can't sleep right so I need a lifeline
Keep telling me they love me from the sideline, on cloud nine
But I know that I can't make her mine, I've been acting so out of line
Don't think I'm seeing eye to eye, out of sight so things out of my mind
I overthink too much, kinda stuff that keeps me up at night
Paralyzing so I sit tight, pull out a notepad, write my feelings down so I feel alright
Anxiety's my stop, I'm sitting at a green light
And the momma say she loving it
And that's all I need, cause I put others before myself
Probably why I'm always falling out
Ball out on my own cause I call the shots now
Know if I rock with you
You really getting all of my love
Got some VVS's I don't wear, they don't protect me, nah
Run from my feelings, they catching a hold of me
Is it my fault cause I never take my time with love?
Too busy rushing it, can't sleep right so I need a lifeline
Keep telling me they love me from the sideline, on cloud nine
They put me on strings, so I had to cut them off
Thats when some start to grin, they're hoping that I fall off
But I just run away, you know I love to blast off
They think I got it all figured out now, well I don't
Losing control, seen some things I shouldn't have, I'm too young
And I look up to people not here, all the good die young
People next to me got angel wings with a forked tongue
Deal with so much so I ask myself
"Would it all be worth it in the end?"
Pain comes back in August, I think I know why
Is it my fault cause I never take my time with love?
Too busy rushing it, can't sleep right so I need a lifeline
Keep telling me they love me from the sideline, on cloud nine