Bowdizz - Middle Ground Lyrics

You were there for me in the day time
Then we'd switch hours like a plane ride
I would show you things that I can't hide
But night time came you were not the same high
Others would be there when your flame died
I'll let you do the math how the pain dies
All these nights had me feeling like my brain fried
A few stages wasn't viewing from the same eyes
Couldn't always make it out but I made this
Still praying y'all gon' put me on yo playlist
Still undecided laying by the same fence
Love myself when I hate it don't make sense
The balance altered I need to reverse falter
Betting on both sides I need to secure the offer
Had this since a toddler
She still rings in my head I don't know if I'mma call her

She was there for me in the day time
It was just our routine
Didn't know we would switch
She left me down in the ditch
An then I would fiend

Tipping back beers on the regular
Pulls of rum upstairs I'mma regular
I'm way up you couldn't reach me on my cellular
Yeah.. the kind of habit I developed was
Love or lust but had lack of trust
That came back around I guess karma's a must
The down side of effects takes time to collect
Just really miss the days I wasn't feeling the debts
Then early stages flipped to the middle ground
We would fight and I really tried to hold her down
And all of a sudden found a new situation
Only a few years before my graduation
Pressure building with school pressure building inside
All this weight on my shoulders made it hard to decide
Now when I'm wit her there's no free buzz
She brings the ups with the downs it started because

She was there for me in the day time
It was just our routine
Didn't know we would switch
She left me down in the ditch
An then I would fiend

Long nights long nights I've been having from her
I'm so alone this middle ground is a blur
Long nights long nights I've been having from her
I'm so alone the middle ground is a blur

This middle stage was really getting reckless now
I cut the dosage down but still she wasn't stepping down
She'd get me through my homework and wear off when I'm writing
All the focus gone now this music ain't exciting
All my work cut out but lacking execution
Thought I had a companion but I'm not producing
Supposed to boost me more than others but my energy weak
Only way to balance me out was to go and pour a drink
The depressant stimulated couple years college educated
Everyday getting medicated slowly lonely separated kid
Was what it was
I guess it is
The way I lived (uh)
And those years are quite a blur in this memory
I guess being stimulated got ahead of me
Piece me back together but gradually it would sever me
Damage on serotonin I wonder what it's said to be