Bonish - Not Okay Lyrics

Gotta pour my heart out for this one
How can I save myself from my past when I can't even keep my peace
How can make my money from rap when cant even build my team
I'm still out grinding taking my time but the times not waiting for me
I kiss my mum goodbye tryna build my life with a big old dream but I
Hate to be involved but I got no option
I'm all in debt tryna rent this apartment
I keep my keys but I keep on losing it
Love this girl but I keep on accusing
Abusing the things that I love and I hate it
Too young but I'm too outdated
Im sober but I'm still faded
I act okay but I'm not okay w it
Yeah
My minds asleep but my hearts still standing
I'm out of the streets but I'm still out stranded
I'm flying this plane but I'm scared to be landing
I hope my dreams won't leave me abandoned
I just feel my prides to big for my ego
Gotta girl but I love to cheat tho
I'm too tired to be spending my life like a weirdo
Hate to be hurting my mum
I hate to be filled with jealousy envy and greed tho
Pretty childish the way that I be tho
Got different sides like a Cheeto
Tryna spend my life as a hero
I been doing this for years as an artist
But I hate to be breaking my promise
Im all lies i don't seem to be honest
I cut ties to appreciate abundance
Tatted my name on the concrete
Cut my rope when I bungee
Feels like nobody here loves me
Feels like it dont seem to be working
How can I save myself from my past when I can't even keep my peace
How can make my money from rap when i can't even build my team
I'm still out grinding taking my time but the times not waiting for me
I kiss my mum goodbye tryna build my life with a big old dream but I
Hate to be involved but I got no option
I'm all in debt tryna rent this apartment
I keep my keys but I keep on losing it
Love this girl but I keep on accusing
Abusing the things that I love and I hate it
Too young but I'm too outdated
I'm sober but I'm still faded
I act okay but I'm not okay w it