BongCloud - Who I Was Lyrics

This is a song about who I used to be
I don't know who I was but he's still hard to set free
Cause no matter who he was, always be a part or me
Scattered me across the floor, and I lost humanity
Demons inside, thought I lost them all that night
Didn't know that they were hiding in the corners of my mind
The reasons I fight, for my family's why I write
But I don't know where to go, lost without a guiding light
It's time to move on from who I was no looking back
Time to remove myself and get my life on track
Former self on a shelf, I am alive an must unpack
All the feeling inside from all the memories that I lack
It's so hard to accept, the old me's never coming back
Swept up under the rug, and all the memories fade to black
Mind like a drug, still I don't remember jack
Now a new me is here, and I must put him on a plaque
This is a song about who I used to be
I don't know who I was but he's still hard to set free
Cause no matter who he was, always be a part or me
Scattered me across the floor, and I lost humanity
I'm living a life that is no longer in my head
I am missing the light that got my ass up out of bed
An lately I just fight, with all my constant mental dred
I stay thinking about if we had just stayed home instead
Will I feel home again, or just search til I'm dead
Catacomb like remains, search through nothing in my head
Microphone in my brain, for the message that I spread
Wreckage in my heart, mind is hanging from a thread
Life has gotten hard, hustling for my daily bread
Don't remember how to cope, with the darkness in my head
Here with a bitch called hope, knowing this is not the end
All the violence I survived, now the silence is my friend