I got PTSD and it shows I've been healing tryna let it go
Got a deeper hurting in my soul Got me speeding, swerving down the road
Fake a smile and keep it on the low
Got the liquor mixing with the smoke
Can't ask for help from somebody, ain't helpin themselves so I'd rather do bad on my own
I get stuck in a loop, hop right back in the zone
Made a promise to go get a bag for the bros
I ain't nowhere near rich, but this bag getting long
Had to step on the leeches, try tagging along
You slip from this height, ain't no padding to fall
When you step up and plate, better bat at the ball
Ain't mad at nobody that say that they hate me
They crazy to think that they matter at all
I'm too good for the league, had to change the court
I'm the captain, no choice but to brave the storm
Put my trust in these people, they changed of course
Ain't nothing new, cause I knew when it rains, it pours
I own a soul that they can't ignore
They ain't show me no love, now we waging wars
Used to hate on myself, you couldn't hate me more
I'm not new to the earth, I done came before
Know some bitches that look like they fresh out a magazines
Overseas saying, get you this mac and cheese
In my DM's, she begging like, Daddy, please
I've been drained, need a change of the battery
Want me all in her mouth like a cavity
Shorty bad, but she f*cked with a bum what a tragedy
You done laid with a scrub, now your kitty is raggedy
Back in the day, would've had you a Chastity
I'm on my way up
Yahweh give me strength to carry all this weight
Mend my broken heart, relieve me from these thoughts that's in my brain
And show me all my losses, hold a gain
Soul broke, whole body full of pain
Don't trust nobody, all the same
Clear all my gardens of the snakes
Cluttered conscious, I feel insane
Smoking chronic to meditate
I know, I know, must play my role
Can only hope y'all entertained
Life isn't fair, that's how it goes
Like f*ck them diamonds and the gold
Rooftops, I'm tryna make a toast
Broke out my silence, now they know
I got PTSD and it shows I've been healing tryna let it go
Got a deeper hurting in my soul Got me speeding, swerving down the road
Fake a smile and keep it on the low
Got the liquor mixing with the smoke
Can't ask for help from somebody, ain't helpin themselves so I'd rather do bad on my own
I get stuck in a loop, hop right back in the zone
Made a promise to go get a bag for the bros
I ain't nowhere near rich, but this bag getting long
Had to step on the leeches, try tagging along
You slip from this height, ain't no padding to fall
When you step up and plate, better bat at the ball
Ain't mad at nobody that say that they hate me
They crazy to think that they matter at all
I got PTSD and it shows I've been healing tryna let it go
Got a deeper hurting in my soul Got me speeding, swerving down the road
Fake a smile and keep it on the low
Got the liquor mixing with the smoke
Can't ask for help from somebody, ain't helpin themselves so I'd rather do bad on my own
I get stuck in a loop, hop right back in the zone
Made a promise to go get a bag for the bros
I ain't nowhere near rich, but this bag getting long
Had to step on the leeches, try tagging along
You slip from this height, ain't no padding to fall
When you step up and plate, better bat at the ball
Ain't mad at nobody that say that they hate me
They crazy to think that they matter at all