BoldBeats - Pretense Lyrics

I ain't never get a reason
I ain't never get a reason
Why you do me dirty? I ain't never get a reason
Nightmares every night, ain't get no rest, so I ain't sleepin
Anxiety attacks , yes, I've been having trouble breathin
Believe me, I wish I could say this was only recent
Don't ask me how I am, I'll lie and tell you that I'm decent
A secret, I feel like I might die out in a deep end
Fight or flight on autopilot, I've been stuck on defense
Walk around with a smile, but this ain't nothin' but a pretense
Been searching for myself, I can't find em
Made a few mistakes to saddest part is, that I can't rewind em
Barely hangin' on, swervin' like I need alignment
A man is only worth what he provides, no need to give reminders
Callin' out to Yahweh, tell me, can you hear me
I've been fightin' with my demons, so I know the devil near me
And clearly, I need you more than ever, I mean it dearly
Cause something's disturbing my soul
Hidin', tryna save face, searchin' for a safe place
Feels like it been years that I've been runnin' at the same pace
I've been tryna maintain, not into playin' blame games
Like a broken record, always askin' them the same things
Damn
Why you do me dirty? I ain't never get a reason
Nightmares every night, ain't get no rest, so I ain't sleepin
Anxiety attacks , yes, I've been having trouble breathin
Believe me, I wish I could say this was only recent
Don't ask me how I am, I'll lie and tell you that I'm decent
A secret, I feel like I might die out in a deep end
Fight or flight on autopilot, I've been stuck on defense
Walk around with a smile, but this ain't nothin' but a pretense
Walk around with a smile, but this ain't nothin' but a pretense
Fight or flight on autopilot, I've been stuck on defense