Blonde Sunday - Judas Lyrics

I was Judas
You were my Christ
You gave me your heart
And I ruined your life
You reached down
To pick me up
But I couldn't drink
From that sacred cup
There were so many guys
I thought I couldn't compete
So I watched them
As you washed my feet
I felt your love
But didn't feel I deserved it
How can I be worthy
If I'm worthless?
And I was so cruel
How could I hurt you?
You gave me a chance
And I scarred those hands
And I doubt I'll love again
I hope you're with your friends
While I'm all alone
I guess you reap what you sow
'Cause you loved me
Through all the excuses
You're so perfect
I was so stupid
I ran away
'Cause I'm so useless
You're so perfect
How could I lose this?
Everyone loved you
I was so insecure
That you would leave
So I left you first
I gave you away
To pay my debts
So now I'm free
But not without regrets
'Cause what kills me most
Is that you still loved me
As you carried your cross
And I hung in my tree
I'd cut you down
Just to see you bleed
But after all that I'd done
You still did it for me
I was so cruel
How could I hurt you?
You gave me a chance
And I scarred those hands
And I doubt I'll love again
I hope you're with your friends
While I'm all alone
I guess you reap what you sow
I took the money
It has its uses
But you're so perfect
How could I do this?
I didn't realize
I was clueless
You're so perfect
But I'm just Judas
Maybe you only know what you've got when it's gone
Maybe that's what it takes to admit I was wrong
I ruined things and now we're both at the end
But darling I can't wait to see you again