Blonde Sunday - Heart Attack Lyrics

I am not my body cause my body wants you back
I don't got no hobby since you gave me that heart attack

I was lying on the tiles of the bathroom floor
I couldn't stop giving in you kept on taking more

I look in the mirror and scream but there is no sound
My hand bleeds I hit myself shattered glass flies all around

Slam my head against the wall why is this so hard
I don't want to but I need you I've fallen so far

Can't tell them what's going on
I can't let them know but somethings wrong
I need help but I'm so afraid
Oh help me 'cause there's no escape

I tell everyone I'm fine I'm drowning in fake smiles
I'm sinking down down down in languishing denial

I think that my parents know about me and you
They haven't accused me yet I feel it coming soon

I admit I have a problem I can't go more than a week
I hate myself when I have you a self disgusted ecstasy

I tell myself if no one knows then you'll go away
But you've nestled in my brain I think you're here to stay

Can't tell them what's going on
I can't let them know but somethings wrong
I need help but I'm so afraid
Oh help me 'cause there's no escape

I find myself craving you you're my favorite sin
I stopped going to church for you I always knew you'd win

I know that God must hate me 'cause I am worthless
And what's even worse is that I know that I deserve it

I will never fall in love so I must make believe
'Cause once they find out about you I know that they will leave

Every day I spent with you I felt so good inside
So I gave you everything now you've ruined my life

Can't tell them what's going on
I can't let them know but somethings wrong
I need help but I'm so afraid
Oh help me 'cause there's no escape

Help me
Baby
'Cause I can't
Stop