BLNCE - A Letter to Her pt iii Lyrics

Sometimes I think about you, in full description
It makes me really think that I, really miss you
You used to be my sunshine, my prescription
But words for you now, I, lack the diction
Moved on truly, after, long intermission
Shades of you, in them, lead to the dismission
Can't allow anything, not a small depiction
Leads to the same outcome, just me wishing
Still find myself wondering how you feel at night
Wonder if you feel like you did, everything right
Or if your head's uneasy, sometimes I hope it isn't out of spite
But sometimes I hope it is, cause I forgive my own oversight
Not you though, that takes some time to heal
When your name's brought up in circles, I don't know how to feel
Sometimes joyous cause you're winning, but others
Mm-mm-mm-mm
I see these sparks in the stars
Creativity tends to strike the hardest in the dark
In my heart, I often wish there was more
But I know my spot in yours
So I stay back and create to live up with them beyond Mars
New flaws arise and I just put em off
Cause the inside's what I'm more focused on
Maybe took it too far, but here we are
Maybe I'm not lost, I've been found the whole time
Foolish is the man who thinks that they above them all
Watch em all line up and one by one they fall
Never I, cause I've always been standing tall
But she the only one to punch below the belt in the brawl
Had me sitting down thinking, damn, maybe I'm wrong
Master class, gas lit, can't save em all
Saw the writing all on the wall, the type of shit that had me lovesick and all appalled
Sentencing in my purgatory is plenty
Gotta sit and watch from a distance, it's fitting
Wishing that I had took cues earlier and saved me many
Hours thinking, I was the problem, more thoughts still pending