blick! - Lost. Lyrics

Lemme tell you all about that youngin JB
His name, got a story, to it, bout how he hate beef
No matter what, the mirror saying "everybody hates me"
He see demons, dead people, haunting him he can't sleep
But he never stop fighting, they can't stand JB
All he ever wanted, to be better than he can be
How much deeper you wan go? Already in it xan deep
Feeling faded to the point, my stomach hurt, I can't eat

Man I'm wilding, self destructing, bringing grief around my mother
I been tryna figure out why I can't seem to see my brother
It's like everybody going up, while I keep going under
Didn't jump up in this water just to drown, I need something

Been to hell and back, don't talk to me about demons
Hurts to find out, yo brother who you been beefing
Turning looking back, the water, man I been deep in
My dumb ass, won't listen to sound reason
Got a childish mind, around 2 or 3 and
Dreamer child, ain't doing nothing but dreaming(x4)

Thought he had a friend, better yet, someone to believe in
Look at all the fruit, he collecting, from all they seedlings
Thought he peeped it, couldn't see the signs, he playing defence
He just know it's a dirty little secret

He would never do that to ya
When he was younger, he was a hooper
Find it hard to think, neck deep in confusion
At night, feel like he don't wanna make it through them
Strapped into autopilot, you can see him cruising
He just wanna know the answer, why they all wan use him
Popping all these pills to numb the pain, drug abusing
Magazines and clips, he didn't know what they were shooting
Said they wanted just a minute, he said f*ck it gave em two then
Fighting wars against himself, and he just keep on losing
He don't stop at red lights, stop signs, running through them
Can't get caught in traffic he just gotta keep on moving on

Y'all keep y'all skellies in the closet, he got his all out on show
It ain't no telling what they wanna do but he don't wanna know
Living fast, f*cked his brain up, started moving slow
Situation looking grim, when you start reaping what you sowed

Went to work, while you was dreaming, manifested it for years
Way you moved, was like you hated that respect from all yo peers
Now I got a half a tooth, and a lil urge to get veneers
But it's hard to make decisions, verging on the end of years

Begging god please save me, I'm losing my mind
They moving the signs, give me a choice, and, I'm choosing to die
If you think there's a better option, you can decide
All I know a coffin is not a 2 seater ride

I don't wanna keep who the streets made me be
Sending prayers to the sky, cause he gave me peace
Stayed down, til I came up, I waited patiently
The mirror said, you going through pain, and all of it is for me