Look at you
Messy hair
Makeup everywhere
Motherf*cker sitting there with nothing but a blank stare
Such a disgrace
How can I become
Someone grown against every single one
Inward thinking has me spiraling I'm coming undone
Now I'm stunned
Now I'm broke
Now I smoke
F*ck
Roll up my heart on the inside
Just go ahead and let me die in the drive by
I don't even know why I think twice
You f*cking with me is causing this divide
I just want to swim to the deep end
What's your price to play then
I just want to breath in and
Breath out
Breath in
And back
Happiness
What I want
What I need
I just want to get shit straight before the death of me
Quit playing me
Ghosting me
Heart so weak from all these numbing losing streaks of f*cking hide and seek
I'm so peaked
I'm so done
Disconnected from this world and every single one
Playing hearts like playing cards
Now you know why
I don't come out in the barren daylight
Every single time I try to find myself
Overcome by putting you up on the shelf
By design we're all blind
Might as well throw my change down the well
Aim downrange into hell now
Roll up my heart on the inside
Just go ahead and let me die in the drive by
I don't even know why I think twice
You f*cking with me is causing this divide
I just want to swim to the deep end
What's your price to play then
I just want to breath in and
Breath out
Breath in
And back
Ever since 6/1/96
Never thought normal made any since
Yeah there's ignorance in bliss
But I age and advance with disturbance and divergence in my differing versions
My conscious collect into whispering persons
Wake up my respect for all my heavy burdens
Determine what's looking uncertain
Ignore all aversion
I'm ripping these curtains
I'm all that determines
Every single time I try to find myself
Overcome by putting you up on the shelf
By design we're all blind
Might as well throw my change down the well
Aim downrange into hell now
Roll up my heart on the inside
Just go ahead and let me die in the drive by
I don't even know why I think twice
You f*cking with me is causing this divide
I just want to swim to the deep end
What's your price to play then
I just want to breath in and
Breath out
Breath in
And back out
I just feel so divided
Love and hate make me a hybrid
Letting go of my past pain
I'll keep running in circles until my head aches