blair romance - i feel weird Lyrics

It's my birthday
I cried again
It's not like it's a surprise
That you weren't here again

I coughed
So loud
I think they know i'm smoking again
Yeah i get it, it's bad
I had a panic attack

On Thursday
You took me to the harbour
It never occurred to me that we couldn't be this close i'm

Almost 22 and you're 30 years
Older than me
I swear you
Were supposed to be
Guiding me

But i'm
None the wiser
And i can't get a grip
I can't seem to understand just who the parent is
And i'm
Getting older
With every dying age
I swear i see myself a little more
In my own mothers face

It's so scary getting older
Haven't seen my brother in years
Spent $40 on uber eats
But when it arrived
It wasn't dead, it's alive

Be careful
I'm trying not to cry about it
For the 4th time this week
I should probably get something to eat

I'm sick of it
Days just keep passing
And all i can think about
Is how my ass looks in these jeans

Never mind
I took them off anyways
I noticed my stomach spilling out when i sit
So i won't
End up getting
Something to eat
I'll skip a day in my week
Spend it on buying
Aderall and weed

It's so scary getting older
Haven't seen my brother in years
Spent $40 on uber eats
But when it arrived
It wasn't dead, it's alive

Constantly making
Poor financial decisions
Just to fill the hole
That you left when you died

I called for a ride
They said you were dead in no time
I had no choice but to run
Man it should've been fun