Blackboy Infinity - A Note to Self Lyrics

Wrote you on a gram and told you I'm not the first one
Word to a boogie, no not a regular person
These niggas be f*cking up and that's why you hurting
You don't gotta put me on, cause I seen it when I was lurking
Ain't gon' shoot my shot, cause you probably gonna play me
I'm smarter than your ex, cause a broken heart really made me
You said you over him but you arguing on the daily
I'm not your side piece like mash potato and gravy
Damn double back, what's the facts I ain't mad doe
I think we on the same wavelength like a voice note
Don't wanna speed it up, sloth vibes, can we take it slow
I'm moving like a jeep, you giving me lambo, damn yo
This the pain where you stub your big toe, on the low
It be hurting, but I can't let I show
Cause I know, if I fall in love I think I'll overdose
Come close, why they ghost you after the convos
Damn yo

I just think that, when our time is here
I won't really have to question where your intentions are, or where your loyalty lies
Shit, if I'm being honest, it's okay
Cause I know my emotions change faster than counting to 5
So I ain't really in a rush to force you into something that should be there naturally
Just keep me posted and keep it a buck
So I can protect my mental and protect my capacity
See we got it all f*cked up
Feening to find fulfillment in either before or after the self love
Craving they flesh and spirit to warm you like a hug
You know I got anxiety
I'm busy making a movie out of scenarios I made up

Scenarios that I made inside of my head, my words overfed
I can't control that I was misled by shit that you said
We had it on lock like a dread, but I can confess
I gave you too much power instead
Of giving it back, reciprocated on my behalf
The shit that I lack, is what be causing me to retract, from answering back
To shit that you had wanted to ask, about intentions of me
If they genuine, or its cap, but matter a fact
It's better that I don't get attached, because of my past
I'm scared that if I steer, I'ma crash, and that why I laugh
Distract me from the trauma at hand, damn
Distract me from the trauma at hand, damn