They say a few could feel a spirit rise long before we cry
To the moon soaring
And we just want to catch a high to get that feeling
Anytime were not dealing with whats important cus it feels to Gorgeous
We do it too often
We know its too dangerous
We know were too lost
But theres devils angels from two angles
So I need two crosses
I need two halos
I need new options
God save us we need to be strong
Through losses
Its hard thats all that I pray for
And all of my songs have taught them
Every day is to savor but all of our wrongs are costing
All in all Im just thankful
But satan calls and keeps calling
And all of our moms are f*cking exhausted
All of our dreams falling
Ever since my feet dangled
I've been sowing the reapers cloth growing cold in the street losing focus
Throwing my sleeping off
Broken knowing I'm weak
I've been smoking wishing I wasn't
But theres open wounds in this pit in my stomach
The words just come to me like
The firefly's and butterfly's float
But sting like a bumble bee
I'll finally find whats under my nose
Because the recipe is faith that I can humble my woes
They want f*ck with me and buckle my hope
But they don't come close
And you can judge me but only God has seen everything
It used to be the pills but now only God'll make sense to me
Sometimes I'm still thinking about killing me
And seeing the devil smile at it
Theres still that feeling I dream of feeling thats why I'm napping
Because life in its entirety tires me
It's like their merrily merrily
But inside of me's spiraling
It's like Im barely holding just by the tiniest line of string
That I carry on my own
Until I'm finally smiling