Bill Waves - City of Thoughts (feat. Sierra Sellers) Lyrics

I️ need to know what you think I️ don't
It's dark so
The fiends in a row when the parks closed
Where the dreams go to get lost so the hope seems old
With our hearts froze
And we sold in the street with our Jean holes
But it's cold I️ can't wait to be home
F*ck being broke
And we still are
But at least I️ can see who still calls
The pills gone but it hits deep
That I'm still lost when I've been clean
And the bills on so I️ handle that with
A Real job or dope handed backwards
It feels wrong
But the pills made it cool
We're skilled but I️ saw that the pills made us choose
I went through about 25 schools
With 25 girls I'm dead to

I'm acting ways I can hardly see
I've been acting fake and that's hard for me
It's hard for me when I'm lost
And you can tell that I'm off
But I just act like I'm not
And you just asked me whats wrong?
But I'm gone
Somewhere lost in my thoughts

I️ need to know why
I️ couldn't beat this hell younger
I️ can't stand myself and they smell something
I'm not responsive
I️ need a doctor
The pussy blinds me like I'm unconscious
It's true I'm dumb
When she responded
I watched stranger things with her
But If she leaves I'm not doing drugs
Cus I️ got stranger things that hurt
The shit would hurt though
F*ck you heard
If she left right here
I'd adjust the verse
Thank God I️m lost
Cus I️ love to search
And I️ got a God but it's f*ck the church
F*ck the hearse
But I'll die for this shit
I️m Sorry that I️ lied I️ was high on Christmas
Never realized why I️'m blessed to rise
I️ really only thought that I'd be blessed to die

I'm acting ways I can hardly see
I've been acting fake and that's hard for me
It's hard for me when I'm lost
And you can tell that I'm off
But I just act like I'm not
And you just asked me whats wrong?
But I'm gone
Somewhere lost in my thoughts

I️ need to know why I️ get no sleep man it gets old
My friends OD like a trend so we get bent thrown deep in these hell holes
And they tell us that we can't bring cell phones
And we call em docs
And they call us patients
And they call the shots til I'm off probation

I️ wish I️ could say that the shit was different
I wish I️ was sane but I️ lost my patience
Shit just changed like it's supposed to
Go through the list I'm grateful hopeful
I'm close to this I️ got days I'm soulful
But evil sits and I️ think I'm both
I️ think I'm sick
But I️ think I️ chose it
Since being little kids tryna drink while smoking
I️t's hopelessness where I️ go from east side to Oakland
And Pittsburghs home
So we buy the dope shit

It seems wherever I go
Darkness likes to follow
Let this light remove your sorrow
Got these demons calling my name
But this hope it do the same thing
Why worry bout today when theres tomorrow

So I
Pick myself up
And I
Tell myself I've had enough
And I
Give it to God we trust to let these burdens down

So I
I pick myself up
And I
Tell myself I've had enough
And I
Give it to God we trust to let these burdens down