It gets hard tryna find the light when the dark finds us
I spent March in a twilight while I'm up tryin to write the suns just rising
And I just started yawning
My mom stopped crying
And I just started being honest
And I stopped lying
You can't take from the state of a mind I'm in
It's true you get paid but the state of your minds dimes and your blind
Empty my pockets the state of my minds diamonds
You wait in line to shine but the kings are already shining
Praise be to god I'm not sane
I've seen a lot
We're the lost
With our pain on the pages
And fleeting thoughts
Need to start
Need to stop
See my girl
See my girl
Just when I had thought I felt all the pain in the world...
She breaks my heart
And I'm thinking What's wrong
What's wrong with me
I think I need to go and take a walk and be alone while it's calm in the street
What's on the TV?
I don't even know turn it off
See my phone theres drugs calling me
It's on me and it shows is there really a way out
Because honestly I don't wana feel what I feel now
I just wana tear some shit down and air some shit out
I never knew who I was damn its this now
I grew up in a few cities and towns had my school loving that 250 an ounce
And that girl she was too pretty but ouch
I'm seeing how we miss out on what counts until we're kicked down
My friends are goin out
But I feel alone in a crowd
Im showing out
For all the shook and the broken
From broken homes and the crooked
Take a look and we're going I know that we'll rise
You can see there's hope on our minds
From being behind blinds with the smoke in our eyes
And poems I write
All the shit I put on my minds gone
I always tried hard but finally took the disguise off
With All the lies I bought since a kid
To think some designer cloth would make me better off
When the shit is all in our minds and all
I wanted was to be loved
I just wanted the D wet
Trying not to come
And busting off of the pre sex
Jeans with coke weed OC's and an old Kleenex
Dreams hopeless no peace and there's no sleep yet
All these trends are so weak
I need to stop smoking
Rest In Peace
Even Supreme was eaten by pop culture
I'm not joking
These mother f*ckers do not know us
Arms torn from boulders
From coming up where were lost so it
Got cold but it stopped snowing and last night
I realized
That I just f*cked my life up for the last time