Bill Waves - 1,000 MILES AWAY Lyrics

I always thought that my camp caps were like crowns made for kings of the lost
But I think they just taught me to put me down, to make me think they're not
I am what I think
But Im not what you thought
Or whatever you call me
And everyday I believe in God because the devils keeps calling
The devil keeps calling
The angels keep singing
I fell and keep falling
But everyday I'm up despite myself on these mornings
You can see Hell inside these drawings
The vision gets blurred in church halls
I came up selling pills in the birthplace of Andy Warhol
I was 15 in my pure form with yellow coke that was raw
Blowing smoke on my window sill in a cell I formed of my flaws
But I can feel the sun
I can feel the sun
I can feel the sun beam on my beautiful flaws
Chemicals coming out my pores
Hoping I'll be there tomorrow
In the mirror on my door
The city lights that hide the stars won't throw me off or tell me wrong
I know there's more
I'm tryna lift the ceiling off
My shoulders sore
I'm still in awe from what it taught me
When this life is but a dream
That we're killing off
So I know its war
But you probably won't see half the shit we saw until around your forties

So please save us
Please save us
I got a self destructive mind
I don't need favors, need favors
I just really need to know
The voice telling me theres a ghost in my room
Is only in my head
So I know that I can be closer to truth
But it keeps racing

Please save us
Please save us
I got a self destructive mind
I don't need favors, needs favors
I just really need to know
The voice telling me I don't know what to do
Is only in my head
So when I'm home I can be closer to you
But it keeps racing

I never made it alone
But started early searching to flame a heart I made cold
Thirsty for what I crave since first grade in my Hardaway jersey
And every day I know it hurts that I made it worse
I'll pray I find the words
I need for me to try and say like birds can sing
Or paint a picture I could frame, and write poems about the brave
While the fake answers just spread like a cancer and that addiction waits
And the pavement lands on our heads that we ran on trying to live this way
Like how'd it get this way?
From the farthest days away
Since getting head in that alley way
With an ounce I laid in my coat
On the rainy days I was broke
With the scale I had to recalibrate
Now I pray
All I know is I found a way
They just know how to make boundaries
I break the molds
Im tired of being around the same old shit it's a joke
If its out of state then I'll go
I feel out of place when I'm home
If it's a thousand miles away
A long way I'd still have to go
I found a way
They just know how to make boundaries I break the molds
Pray to God we'll see better days
Fade your lies I need every bit of strength to break the ties
So I made my mind to be featherweight
Flying through the ink on the page
The light I see penetrate the blinds to fade away
With a racing mind it seems everyday

With a racing mind it seems everyday

So please save us
Please save us
I got a self destructive mind
I don't need favors, need favors
I just really need to know
The voice telling me theres a ghost in my room
Is only in my head
So I know that I can be closer to truth
But it keeps racing

Please save us
Please save us
I got a self destructive mind
I don't need favors, needs favors
I just really need to know
The voice telling me I don't know what to do
Is only in my head
So when I'm home I can be closer to you
But it keeps racing