Big Thurmn - Figuratively Thinkin' Lyrics

I've been hiding, I've been blocking out the pain
And I've been busy jumping, hopping, dodging all them hoes
That I didn't even realize it was me who was running away from everybody close
On a different note, but figuratively thinkin' about the life I chose
I can't blame nobody else for things that I've been on
I've been on,
Yeah
Yeah, and I've been thinking lately, bout the shit I lost
Currently been up and down in my head, this is just a thought
That came after realizing this is all my fault
In order for me to be someone better and move on
I'ma have to feel all of the pain that I caused
That I caused
Yeah, down bad on my own, so I never called your phone
Cause you was always there, but I was always alone
And I'm too scared to face the pain, I'm still smoking on this dope
Seems to be the only thing that helps me cope
I've been feeling so many different feelings, I can't let it show
And I can't let it show
I've been busy hopping, jumpin', dodging holes
I didn't even realize it was me who was running away from everybody close
On a different note, but figuratively thinkin' about the life I chose, I can't blame nobody
And I can't blame nobody, I can't blame nobody
And I've been thinking lately, bout the shit I lost
It's currently been up and down in my head, this is just a thought
That came after realizing this is all my fault
In order for me to be someone better and move on
I'ma have to feel all of the pain that I caused
And honestly I'm hurt and traumatized from it all
Traumatized from it all, from it all, from it all
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, I had it then I lost it, remember then forgot it
The life that I've been living, seems to be awfully haunted
Got a couple cases, then I got a couple charges
Whether it was mine or not, they found me with some hard shit
Papa paid the bondsman, I said mom I promise
That shit wasn't mine, I'm really being honest
But I know that everybody felt like I was on it
My big cousin told me stop it, cause God knows I was going to jail
So f*ck all of the nonsense, ignore all the gossip
Except all the pain and agony and move on with your life