The Big Cats - Numbed Up Lyrics

I've been numbed up for so long now
I've forgotten the way it feels to feel
Pressing down on my age-old wounds
I can't even tell which ones have healed

I tried

I've been thinking for so long now
All my thoughts are in each other's way
I don't know how to clear my head
It's all the same if I work or rest or pray

I tried

Now it's spring and the hills are green
And the sound of birdsong fills the woods
I want to crack my frozen skin
And hope the fissures let in something good

I tried