Bidziil - I been getting by somehow Lyrics

I been getting by
And I don't know how
I been getting by
And I don't want to now
Cause in all honesty
It's a dark reality
Without you by my side
Without you on my mind
Without you in my life
But I been getting by somehow
Yeah I been getting by
Everyday
I try to move on
But I can't move on
Cause the memories of me and you
Still linger on
In and out of my head
Now I'm wishing I was dead
But I can't lose myself right now
Cause I gotta focus on the bag right now
So I can make my family proud
And they won't have to live in doubt
Anymore
No not no more
Cause I want to provide for them
Cause now I am the man of the house
But I don't got a spouse
So I'll do it for my mom
I been getting by
And I don't know how
I been getting by
And I don't want to now
Cause in all honesty
It's a dark reality
Without you by my side
Without you on my mind
Without you in my life
But I been getting by somehow
Yeah I been getting by
Everynight
Is a constant struggle
Cause I gotta deal with my demons
Cause they're always trying to kill me
But I would rather deal with the misery
Instead of giving up without a fight
But everyday is a never-ending war
With myself
And my fears
Cause I know my end is near
And I'm trying to prepare myself
And my family for when my time comes
Cause I know it's coming soon