B-Hill - LETTER TO YOU Lyrics

I gotta, I gotta rap this shit like how, when I was thinking about it
Word up
Shit deep

Uhh
Time flies, we could talk about it Bond so strong, can't walk about it
I'm just here delivering a message
Press send, hopefully you'll get it
Communication lost, it ain't sweet
Weeks go past, we don't speak
Shit crazy, now look at me
In this booth, venting to this beat
Got me filling words on a sheet Been together since we was teens
Strong, independent, black woman
Always had a shoulder for your lean
After ten years, we called quits. Still, when you call, I'ma answer
You and I could've had three children. Then the doctors let you know that you got...
Tsss damn
Look, doctors let you know you had cancer
Swear that shit broke a nigga down
But I gotta be strong for you
Every time I'm with you, you gon' smile
Can't believe they took our little child
Can't believe they took our little twins
After that, it took a little while
Pinched like a needle under skin
I can't even lie, that shit is foul
Always tell you keep your head high no matter what
That's how it go from the start
Realize when you grow up with somebody, that it's difficult growing apart
Bottle after bottle, getting drunk in the studio
Every morning, I feel it
Blacking out, bugging, doing wild shit
Had a serious talk with my spirit
Thinking bout how the cards played out
Thinking bout all of the doctors you visit
Procedures that they got you going through
Life through a crazy audible
All of this laying in my mental Zoning out in instrumentals
I know that my niggas know me well
Get around them, they can't even tell
I'ma bring heaven to the room Even when I'm in the pits of hell
I could have the world up on my shoulders, but the main goal is to excel
For real
This is to the heart like a stethoscope
Not a need to know, but a get to know
When you in the dark, never let it grow
When you got someone that'll hold you down, please, no matter what, never let them go

Thinking I'm damaged, but you told me you broken
I noticed the difference in that
Enjoy the times
Cause they turning to memories you never getting them back
From time to time
Like the old times I wish we could sit and relax
Reluctant on giving the world to anyone else, because I know it could collapse
God gives tough battles to the toughest soldiers I know you feel an attacked
I don't think you truly know how strong you are
I promise that most would've cracked
Under the pressure you face on a daily basis just know you pressure in fact
I want to see you happy even if it's not with me
Tell me what's bigger than that Let me know
Yeah
This was a letter to you
Signed, sincerely Hill
I gotta give credit to you
Wishing the best for your future I know you gon' be straight
Before you decide to judge a book, go ahead and read any page

Are you kidding me? My heart is in my throat at that first beat drop
This is a letter to you
You have a hell of a poker face, because there are just so many details that I kept from you

And the bit that I did let you in on, and the bit that I did let you support me with
To know it was received so deeply when you were so solid through all of it
It's actually pretty triggering to know what you actually felt
There's so much I wish I could take back

You know, you don't invest, like, all this time just to end up here. It's stupid
But, um, what does it say
Love is a journey, right? Love is a journey, not a, not a destination
And, um, a few bad chapters doesn't mean it's the end of the book, I guess

Yeah