Beyond Human - Flames Lyrics

I knew that I was falling, Still I didn't move
I felt like there was something that I had to f*cking prove
I wasn't doing enough so I knew I had to improve
My whole life was a mess, so something had to be removed

It started with the lies, to my parents, and my friends
Entire truths were never straight, because there always was a bend
And my tongue was all tied up, It felt like it was all condemned
All my friends seemed to believe me so I followed my trend

Soon after came stealing, cause I felt like having more
But I realized that I f*cked up when the cops came to my door
The pain was unrelentless, by myself I tried to store
I never felt good anymore, inside me was a war

I knew that I was falling, Still I didn't move
I felt like there was something that I had to f*cking prove
I wasn't doing enough so I knew I had to improve
My whole life was a mess, so something had to be removed

My life is f*cking up, and I'm always crying
I never said it would get this bad, I'm dying
I tell myself that I was always trying
But life is not a game, you try to play it your in flames

I turned to f*cking drugs and my life turned into a mess
My friends and family tried to help but I would use them in excess
Everyone knew I had a problem but I never would confess
So I kept using them and using them, my feelings were suppressed

I became addicted, but I never saw the wrong
The drugs would keep me out of it, so I could play along
But when I realized how wrong I had been, I didn't feel too strong
I was different now, but I could finally belong

I knew that I was falling, Still I didn't move
I felt like there was something that I had to f*cking prove
I wasn't doing enough so I knew I had to improve
My whole life was a mess, so something had to be removed

My life is f*cking up, and I'm always crying
I never said it would get this bad, I'm dying
I tell myself that I was always trying
But life is not a game, you try to play it your in flames