Violent shakes
And I can't stay awake,
But all my sorrows dissipate
With every hit I take.
Nose running red;
Comatose in this bed.
I keep replaying
Every f*cking word they've ever said.
"You're just a fiend
And you'll never be clean"
I can't be redeemed
But I feel serene.
A creature eating at me from within.
Yet, so euphoric once the venom sets in.
I'm so f*cking...
Mesmerized,
I can't be the only fiend
Who's still hypnotized
By every bump & every line.
Won't you fade my eyes,
Save me from a fate foreseen?
I'm so paralyzed.
A failure by my own design,
But you feed me lies
Leaving me to be unclean.
Chemical demise,
A poison coursing through my spine.
It's time to feel the pain
For the mistakes I've made.
I swear I've been here before.
I wanted nothing else,
But to find myself.
I swear I've been here before.
IN THIS DISASTER!
(I live a life contrived.
I cannot rewind time,
And I can't settle the score)
I SWEAR I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE!
IN THIS DISASTER!
(Destructive roles reprised;
While you all fall in line
My body falls to the floor.)
I SWEAR I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE!
FUCK!
This is endless!
Forever chained
To this cruel f*cking temptress!
I'm a slave
To complacence.
The type of monster
You'd hide in your basements.
Locked away,
It's been days since
I've felt anything but self-abasement.
I can't breathe; walking lifeless.
I'm just a puppet to all of my vices.
I'm so...
Mesmerized,
I can't be the only fiend
Who's still hypnotized
By every bump & every line.
Won't you fade my eyes,
Save me from a fate foreseen?
I'm so paralyzed.
A failure by my own design,
But you feed me lies
Leaving me to be unclean.
Chemical demise,
A poison coursing through my spine.
It's time to feel the pain
For the mistakes I've made.
I swear I've been here before.
I wanted nothing else,
But to find myself.
I swear I've been here before.
IN THIS DISASTER!
(I live a life contrived.
I cannot rewind time,
And I can't settle the score)
I SWEAR I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE!
IN THIS DISASTER!
(Destructive roles reprised;
While you all fall in line
My body falls to the floor.)
I SWEAR I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE!
I live a life contrived.
I cannot rewind time,
And I can't settle the score.
Destructive roles reprised;
While you all fall in line
My body falls to the floor.