Really can't explain exactly how I feel
Trying to numb this pain but I don't want to pop pills
Don't get me wrong I don't want to kill myself
Maybe I just need some help
Don't know why my mental health's like this
I might lose myself
I can try to run away from it
But theres just no way
It just comes another day
Like there's no other way
I can't take more of this pain
No matter how much I gain
I'm still feeling like i'm worthless
Like none of this is worth it
I've done all of this searching
And somehow I still feel lost
Something always feels off
This shit pisses me off
Because I don't know what's wrong with me
Baby come along with me
Will you just stay strong with me
I can't tell if I need you
Sometimes it's gone when I see you
Maybe it might be you
I think it just might be you
I really don't think I trust myself no more
I've been inching from my past
And I'll do what I do best
Writing this song when i'm sounding depressed
Neglecting the actions to pick up the mess
Man I really hate myself right now
Can't look in the mirror I don't know how
I don't want to pop pills
But i'm this damn close and I might just drop still
So tell me how can I heal
When i'm crying for help and yall just watch still
Pray to god she tell me that she messing with my eyes
Never will she know what i'm holding, about to cry
Never will she know that I really want to do
Never will I know when it'll be our last goodbye
I don't think i'm wrong when I say that I can't cope
But it's messing with my head though
And I cannot ask for the stuff that I need
So what's affecting me more
I really don't want to take these drugs and just go fly away
I really want to help myself
I really don't want to take these drugs and just go fly away
I really want to help myself
I really want to help myself
Really can't explain exactly how I feel
Trying to numb this pain but I don't want to pop pills
Don't get me wrong I don't want to kill myself
Maybe I just need some help
Don't know why my mental health's like this
I might lose myself
I can try to run away from it
But theres just no way
It just comes another day
Like there's no other way
I can't take more of this pain
No matter how much I gain
I'm still feeling like i'm worthless
Like none of this is worth it
I've done all of this searching
And somehow I still feel lost
Something always feels off
This shit pisses me off
Because I don't know what's wrong with me
Baby come along with me
Will you just stay strong with me
I can't tell if I need you
Sometimes it's gone when I see you
Maybe it might be you
I think it just might be you