Benjamin Korhonen - The Day Lyrics

I am a different man
And I have been whatever you think I am
But the years go on and I make new songs
But today ain't the day that I wish it was
There's a hole at the bottom of my shoe
And I'm afraid it leads me back to me
I wish that I could play it safe
Keep a couple thousand in my safe
But I got no self control
Still I got that shit tatted on my wrist
Just like a hypocrite
Goddamn I got regrets
Goddamn I got some unhealed trauma
I'll be content but that f*cking day ain't today
I make my own money
I used to want someone to spend it on
I used to think everyday was the day
And I became everything that I hate
So please call a spade a f*cking spade
Dazzled me then but I'm undazzled now
So today ain't the day
There's a hole at the bottom of my shoe
And I'm afraid it leads me back to you
I changed postcodes twice in a year
I used to not care how I appear
I bought pearls from a friend, handmade bracelet
Thank her, ever since I've been happier
Or more positive, optimistic
Didn't last long, short 9 months
Goddamn I don't know what is this
Whole lotta people back in my hometown
Only know me from something cringeworthy
I had my head so far up my ass
Didn't know any better but I was happier
Ignorance is bliss with a dabble of denial
Now I wanna keep a low profile
I make my own money
I used to want someone to spend it on
I used to think everyday was the day
And I became everything that I hate
So please call a spade a f*cking spade
Dazzled me then but I'm undazzled now
So today ain't the day