Ben Varney - Mouldy Lyrics

I let my ego fly 'til I crash into the sea
Then I'm back upon this island, it's the same one at seventeen
It was more than teenage angst, not a phase, I'm twenty three
Found a shelter in the pain like a sea anemone
See I acted like the nice guy, I'm just passive and ashamed
That I'm not the man I thought I was, just some flashes in the shade
My castle always crumble, out of sand that it is made
I couldn't make a wave, so it's stranded I have stayed
I see wisps in the mirror, I see glimpses of the old me
Hiding in the shade while it's shining like the Maldives
Feeling dehydrated but all the water's salty
My skin may be tough but inside I'm growing mouldy
No one knows me
I'm so weak
Don't go please
I'm lonely
Dying man in a living room
Open up a bottle, then I dive in a swimming pool
And the clouds paint the sky in a bitter hue
Tryna find a light now cus I'm missing you, missing you
Black spot forming and it left an eclipse
The waves never bow to the head of the ship
Spores coming off me, think I'm medically sick
Sip whisky slowly playing Elliot Smith, f*ck
I don't want to go outside
Cold December even when the sun is glowing bright
And I'm afraid to go to bed when I got a sober mind
Drinking liquor down the periscope that was an oversight
Why
Why do I always feel a world away
Sailed across the seas just to get the f*cking world away
Then they ask me why and I ain't really know what else to say
Indebted to this necklace, guess that's why I got this hell to pay
I see wisps in the mirror, I see glimpses of the old me
Hiding in the shade while it's shining like the Maldives
Feeling dehydrated but all the water's salty
My skin may be tough but inside I'm growing mouldy
No one knows me
I'm so weak
Don't go please
I'm lonely