Belac - Think Better Lyrics

F*cked up thoughts that keep me up all day and night
Struggling with the feeling of wanting to live or die
Yet I still want to live and see this shit turn out right
F*cked up right?
Sorta masochist, not a pacifist
Been chain smoking to get to a different high
Wasting all my money trying to find a reason why
Caught up in my bullshit just like my ig timeline
About to unfollow myself because
I been going through all different types of hell
Wish I could go head and find my f*cking self
Every time I consider Im like oh f*cking well
I know its true when I think of you
I gotta say and think better of myself
But I rather stay and go through my f*cking hell
I shoulda listened when you came through and tried to help
I promise and I swear to do and think better think better
I promise I promise I swear I swear to do and think better think better
Kind of f*cked up how you went and gone
Should I take this job serious or Should I call it off
Stress is a killer and mental illness ain't nothing to f*ck with
Call from the grim reaper saying she wasn't that lucky
Wish I would have said more
Wish we could have patched up
Went out did and more
Made up for the lack of
What I could have been
Instead you chose to sin
You took the chance
And decided to dive in
A pool of lust I called disgust
I Loved an angel
Devil had a strap, she kept it tucked
I was f*cked
And it was just my luck
Call from a dude you said that you didn't f*ck he said
I'm sorry
I really am f*cking sorry
But I lied when I said I didn't f*ck your chick.
Mmm okay well
Roll that shit up and move onto to toss it
4 years of friendship yeah went ahead and lost it.
F*ck it though yeah I been knew and saw it.
I been knew and saw it
Universe talks to me that's how I got it
Blind in love instead of moving to confront it.
Thought I was crazy I always was onto something
I guess
F*cked up thoughts that keep me up all day and night
Struggling with the feeling of wanting to live or die
Yet I still want to live and see this shit turn out right
F*cked up right?
Sorta masochist, not a pacifist
Been chain smoking to get to a different high
Wasting all my money trying to find a reason why
Caught up in my bullshit just like my ig timeline
About to unfollow myself because
I been going through all different types of hell
Wish I could go head and find my f*cking self
Every time I consider Im like oh f*cking well
I know its true when I think of you
I gotta say and think better of myself
But I rather stay and go through my f*cking hell
I shoulda listened when you came through and tried to help
I promise and I swear to do and think better think better
I promise I promise I swear I swear to do and think better think better