Bedderdaze - Idolize Lyrics

I'm dropping acid tabs
And chewing shrooms up
And only God knows why
I put this weed inside my blunt
Actavis, got me stuck
So I raise the doors up
Fall asleep inside a rolls Royce and when I wake up
I face a table full of dust
And pour my perignon up
I got money some on floor and I ain't picking that shit up

You can have it
I'm a drug addict
With a fully automatic
Paranoid 24/7 coming up with tactics
Got some grey spots on designer
C coming from the ashes
Dreaming, having nightmares
Of myself living lavish
They said Bedderdaze that shit you spit is harder than some pallets
You know I fell and landed on the top
Like some mallets

Back when I was young
Only thing I'd idolize was the 27 Club
Skinny as f*ck I never f*cked with the grub
Writing lyrics in my room
Ain't no way I'm giving up
Never had a decent life because I always had a buzz
Nobody really liked me I was ambitious
Don't understand what I'm doing
Success is a must
When you growing up broke
There ain't nobody you can trust
My wrist got cut so many times
When I was down on my luck
I can't make it if I'm dead
Dear Lord
What the f*ck

Leave a legacy behind
With my schizophrenic mind
My friends ain't never coming back cause she don't wanna see dying
Wanna tell you how I feel but you know I'm probably lying
All the fame catching up
And my problems multiplaying
Narcissism and depression all at the same

Dear God
I lost my f*cking mind
Now I'll never be the same all because I wanna rhyme
Don't want your symptomthy
I really wanna vent what's on mind
Since I lost the world
I can finally go make it mine
Don't look so great so I'ma show you what's inside
The least thing that I can try to do is swallow all my pride