Bazes - My Demon Lyrics

Wake up every day, different day, same feeling
A demon runs in my head
My brother moved away, my parents always fight
This demon is my biggest threat
They are not happy, but always unhappy
Maybe it's better if they move on
But they are my loving human beings, towards them I'm drawn
Can't lean on my brother, he fled the country when things got rough
It's really tough
I feel alone right now, don't know what do
Just a lost kid, it's more than enough
I'm broken down, don't know where to go?
Should I cry or be angry?
Or feel nothing at all?
I will just sit here and wait for the storm to pass
I didn't ask, but my pain I will mask
I just have to face it
Embrace for the impact
No accessory after the fact
But will it get better if I move on?
Or will I blame myself if I move on?
But son we don't hate on each other, we have to let it go
I hope you approve on
Dad, I don't have a choice
Just a 12 year old boy, I'll guess I have to move on
What do you expect?
Of course there is a tear in my heart
Don't where to start again
Now I have to choose with who I want to stay
Ask that of me, I guess I run away
My demon inside
That doesn't go away, that doesn't go away
From my feeling inside
I try to run away, I try to run away
My demon inside
That doesn't go away, that doesn't go away
From my feeling inside
I try to run away, I try to run away
8 years later the wound has healed
Just a scar that has remained
20 years now I'm a happy with a girl, hope that feeling will remain
But things change and it doesn't feel the same
Am I to blame?
I don't want to bleed
I don't want to rip
I don't want so scar
I don't want to get lost from afar
I survived once, I can survive again
But will I be the same?
I have to fight again
Against this demon that runs in head, says that I don't want to live
But I got to give everything I have, everything I believe in, everything I stand for
Will I win this race?
Not with this pace, this is a slow phase, there are 7 billion different ways
I survived once, I can survive again
But will I be the same?
I have to fight again
Against this demon that runs in head, says that I don't want to live
But I got to give everything I have, everything I believe in, everything I stand for
Will I win this race?
Not with this pace, this is a slow phase, there are 7 billion different ways
My demon inside
That doesn't go away, that doesn't go away
From my feeling inside
I try to run away, I try to run away
My demon inside
That doesn't go away, that doesn't go away
From my feeling inside
I try to run away, I try to run away
We all have this demon
We should not run, we just have to face it