baxter - Attempt Lyrics

and i try to put it out of the way,
but it keeps sticking me back in the face,
and i try to tell myself it's okay,
but i know deep down it's not okay,
that's a nasty cut that you've got from me
i think i'll do it again, savor my friends,
these are the friends that you can't have,
you'll never touch me. these were the words...
and this one's coming back, my attempt to be.
you won't change me today. self. try and be.
this one was me.
and i try to tell everything i had in mind,
everything i've seen,
and i try to let you know what was real,
but my hands keep running around my brain,
it's a nasty cut that you've got from me.
i think i'll do it again, my friend,
attempt to be this one that you always want me to be.
the one who knows everything you gotta be.
conformity/atrocity, who i'm supposed be.