Every time I try to find
Words to say to you
I can't write
I can't write how I feel
Being serious scares me
Can't joke about everything
But you know that won't stop me
And I got ghosts in lands unknown
Littered cross the coasts
Threatened to come home
Jumped ship so you wouldn't know
Dodging bullets I shot on my own
Had enough time the guilt has grown
This anxiety I've been creating
All my jokes self deprecating
Every time I try to find
My way back to you
I can't walk
I don't know why I feel
Something's coming to get me
Keep messing up everything
Bad luck's got the best of me
Running from
The echoes of
The shit you did
To everyone
Every time I try to find
My way back to you
Cramping up from years of work
Hands are stained
Proof's still on your shirt
Just look what you've done to me