Yah
Aye
2 years seems like a mighty long time
Ive been hiding in some strength
Whatever I can find
Whatever gets me right
Why'd you have to die?
To show me something
To show me I'm better
Well here I lie
I dont give a f*ck about any of this
Any of my potential
Leaving out the back and taking a piss
I've been dealing with pain
Grief eats me up
I cant give a shit
I just gotta work
Listen up
Dont you care how I feel?
How I deal with my emotions
Only music helps me get a little better
None of these people can do it
I can't do it myself
So come the day where I finally release
I might finally have some help
Have some wealth
In my pocket
Buy some happiness so I can stop this
Constantly visualizing how it would be
If you never left
Doesn't feel right still
F*ck it, pop another pill
Hydroxyzine so I cant feel, the anxiety
Shits been real
Way too real
2 f*cking years feels like yesterday
Like I just grew up
Im too young to feel this way
To go through everything
Without you here
I still f*cking celebrate you
What else is there to do?
When you would be 22
What was I doing at that age
Just f*cking around
Now I gotta ge tthis shit done that pays
Pacing myself like I got time
When I dont
But I hate
Feeling these feelings
I cant stop my f*cking brain
I love this time of year
But I cant stand this day
The day that we lost you
I keep trying my best
But whats there to gain
Its only more pain
The more i put it together
I think I'm done today
I dont give a f*ck about any of this
Any of my potential
Leaving out the back and taking a piss
I've been dealing with pain
Grief eats me up
I cant give a shit
I just gotta work
Listen up
Dont you care how I feel
How I deal
With my emotions
Only music helps me get a little better
None of these people can do it
I can't do it myself
So come the day where I finally release
I might finally have some help