Back to Blue - Forgotten Lyrics

Self evaluation is pure futility
Who the hell am I to tell me who I need to be?
I still dwell in a prison of my own design
Bars within my mind, no concept of time

If I had the nerve, I'd go and ask my Mother
But I know that she'd only send me to my brother

I need a reason please
Tell me why should I deal
With this full time life that feels part time real?
I'll drown in my own air because I forgot how to breathe
The mirror holds a messiah I forgot to believe

I'd fall off a ladder that led me to the stars
Just to make sure that everyone got a good look at my scars
I'll listen to the music, just because the player's dead
Living out the story-line you've contrived within you head

If I had the nerve, I'd go and ask my Father
But the look in his eyes would make me wonder why I bothered

I need a reason please
Tell me why should I deal
With this full time life that feels part time real?
I'll drown in my own air because I forgot how to breathe
The mirror holds a messiah I forgot to believe

If I had the nerve, I'd go and ask my sister
But I'd stand and watch as all those bitches kissed her

I need a reason please
Tell me why should I deal
With this full time life that feels part time real?
I'll drown in my own air because I forgot how to breathe
The mirror holds a messiah I forgot to believe