Expectations Video (MV)

I get down on myself sometimes
Must be these expectations

I've loved and I've lost
Taken leaps of faith no matter what the cost
The definition of unorthodox
With the music, its pandoras box
No return label
Bouquet full of Forget-Me-Nots sitting on the table looking at me like
"I aint goin nowhere, I'm here for eternity"
You can judge away
But I'll save all shits to give for another day
I've got no hate
Regrets or resentments
No shade to throw your way
I'm as calm as croquet
Inside I'm feeling quite fine and A okay
My only question is
What exactly is occurring and going on up in your brain
I turn the page and write the next chapter
Think about life and what might come after
Still full of joy
Lots of laughter
The rap on lock
Could not be down patter
I don't know about you babe
But I stay true
Thats all that matters
Compassion, love and kindness are staples of mine
Better yet standards

I get down on myself sometimes
Write a bunch of dumb rhymes
Try to figure out what I can do
Say or be
Just so I can have a fun time
Like Johnny I walk the line
But direction is all I'm really trying to find
Especially when you want to prove to the world that might be One of a Kind
But it often seems like I'm walking blind
So I gotta get away, clear my head
Way in the mountains, way in the trees
Deep out in nature where I need to be
Spirit of the Universe, speak to me
With my heart wide open I'm ready to start again
Back to square one please
See, when I follow my gut, everything that I need seems to occur with ease
No hyperbolizing, welcome to my journal, say hello to my diary
I'm in love with a girl and she has a man
But whenever I knock, she doesn't deny me
See, everything comes out in the pages
I only want to 'make it' to see the look on their faces
Is that wrong of me God?
I don't man this whole rap thing is just outrageous

This whole rap thing is just outrageous

Losing my mind
Think about you all the time
But you only want the attention
I really wonder if your man knows there's another guy who's in love with you to who you give affection
The bigger question?
What the hell's wrong with me assuming I'm the only one with who you have this discreet connection with
Yea, but I'm done stressing and I'm done expecting
However, who really knows what the future holds?
I'll give up a dollar for piles of gold, smile till I'm old
Till I fold I'll be on a roll; 'cuz in hindsight?
Nobody I know could walk to the beat of my life
'Cuz even when its coal (cold)
I'll put the flame to it
Ignite my soul
Attract the right ones
Goodbye to the bull
Keep my eye on the goal
Progress and conquer, nothing less
I just feel honored to be a part of this
Living, breathing, healthy at best
Put myself to the test only to see how far I can f*cking go as I'm running out of time
I make the most of it
So much to know you could probably write a book on my life even if I died tomorrow