B Dynasty - 20s Lyrics

Yea, as I write these verses
I feel my pain reversing
As I soak this beat up
I feel my brain reminisce on these years that I've lived, uh
So many complicated situations I done been through
It feel like I live in mazes
Two more months I'm turning 20
No more time to be a kid apologize for all I did
My family knows me very well but no one knows me best though
Girlfriend I feel bad for her
She wants me to open up I try my best to open it but I forgot the safe code
I promise that I'm getting better
Honestly I wanna talk but if I'm honest I got secrets I won't ever tell no one
Thoughts that I can't speak about and fears that sow my mouth shut
This my knife I'm cutting open
Hopin it'll all spill out
I feel like time is running out and I just wanna know what life's about
Why can't I be happy with a 9-5 crunching numbers
Why don't I stop this madness
Why does God still accept me
What's the point of getting money
Spending it to pay the bills and never live life for the thrills
Wishful thinking killed the cat
Wait, it wasn't that but I'm still curious about
If I could actually be a dad and raise a family
Matter fact dad I been thinking lately bout you leaving and
I don't think I'm ready for it
God I know you know that I
Stopped and turned my back, but I'm glad you had my back and I'm still growing on this path
Look, you know why you don't play hide and seek alone
It's cuz you'll just seek and never find and you don't hide cuz
You just hiding from yourself and look
Now I'm talking to myself
Look, time is running out yes
But don't you dare be afraid to seize the day you were made for something great
Mama told you that since 8
You got more in your tank
Every car needs a tune up just make sure you come back stronger
20 years is quite a lot but not a lot
I thank you God for this time that I got... that I got