Ayọ - dance of the wind Lyrics

I don't know what is next
'Cus the future is masked
I don't know 'bout the past
I don't know if I'll last
I don't know what is next
'Cus the future is masked
I don't know 'bout the past
I don't know if I'll last
I don't know what is next
I wish I knew what's best
But I never have so, I put my life to the test
I thought I was broken
But I saw there's nothing to correct
Been searching for me my whole life
I'm just confused, I'm not vexed
I carry weight in my chest
Still, on and on I have pressed
If I escape both good and bad
There'll be nothing to select
And though I'm in front of you now
I know that I am not there
I'm running circles in my head
It chases me everywhere
And it's inside
So I can't leave it when it's too much to bear
You can travel the world to find yourself
You won't find it there
And we praise ourselves for this
We hate ourselves for that
And we always look there
So we don't like where we're at
The grass looks greener over there
Because our side's in our blood
We know it intimately
So we see the scars and the mud
And when we get to that side
It's now our side that looks green
We see the mud that's over there
And now we want where we've been
But on both sides there is mud
The grass needs mud, so it's glad
Somewhere on the line
We started calling one good and one bad
For we don't see that they dance
Don't see that they need each other
Don't see that you can't have one
If you do not have the other
And so I danced with the wind
And here I let the birds sing
I let myself disappear
So I became everything
Nature don't call the rain bad
It doesn't call sunshine good
It don't regret what it could
Or judge and say what it should
And I saw for the first time
That I never understood
That everything simply is
There is no bad and no good