Austin Gordon - This Is Begging Lyrics

I still gnaw at my cuticles too much
Nervous habits bred from adolescent touch
Had Jade have stayed I might be a little less anxious
And full of a lot more love

My soul used to swell to twice its size
But then my uncle died
And at his funeral, it was said
That his life didn't matter unless Jesus was at his side
And that's a lie

This is begging
This is forgiveness
This is wondering just where the hell have I been?
This is all my joy thrown down
This is my fear drawn out
This is me talking to God now

The Bible never spoke to me like it was supposed to
Went to youth group just to find someone to get close to
And I pretended to hear a message in that upscale living room
Surrounded by strangers who never knew my view

This is begging
This is forgiveness
This is wondering just where the hell have I been?
This is all my joy thrown down
This is my fear drawn out
This is me talking to God now

Am I wrong to feel this alone?
Am I strong enough to earn this body that I'm loaned?
Am I wrong to feel this alone?
Am I wrong?

It's alright
It's alright
It's alright