Find myself Video (MV)

I'm just tryna find myself, these niggas ain't no help
Feelin' like f*ck I'm throwin' up anything, that's how I feel
I should've never dealt, should've stayed to myself
Cause I can do good on my own, I don't need nobody else

Tryna keep my head on a swivel, it's hard keepin' it up
Tryna maintain and keep my sane, but I feel I'm givin' up
My pain run deeper than the ocean, instead of fillin' up
I can bust my own brain right now, feelin' like I don't give a f*ck

Feelin' like I don't give a f*ck, I done lost all my hope
Been on probation for three years and I can't even smoke
They threaten me with prison time, got a daughter I ain't finna go
Last time I won that bitch, I was thinkin' bout usin' my cover as a rope

Gotta protect myself, I was up there shoppin' up my phone
Thinkin' the time flyin' but it's really gettin' slow
I'm the third one of my father's kids, I got my sister and my bro
I'm in that bitch, gettin' fat and tacos and sloppy joe

Niggas in there jackin' off, lookin' at the CO
Coulda stand watchin' the TV, coulda had the volume low
When I get out, I'ma have a plan, yeah, I'm gon' f*ckin' score
I ain't got a choice, only way up, I gotta f*ckin' go

I'm just tryna find myself, these niggas ain't no help
Feelin' like f*ck em, they don't benefit me, that's how I feel
I should've never dealt, should've stayed to myself
Cause I can do good on my own, I don't need nobody else

Tryna keep my head on a swivel, it's hard keepin' it up
Tryna maintain and keep my sane, but I feel I'm givin' up
My pain run deeper than the ocean, instead of fillin' up
I can bust my own brain right now, feelin' like I don't give a f*ck

Feelin' like I don't give a f*ck
Feelin' like I don't give a f*ck
Feelin' like I don't give a f*ck
Cause I'm losin' all my hoes