My attitude is starting to change
Less rage and more thanks
What is this smile here on my face?
Is this real? Am I fake?
I was told I deserve to be happy
I don't think I'm ready for it to happen
I'm laughing I'm calm
I answer when you call me
Waiting for the dark side
To come back to haunt me
There will always be a place inside me
That everybody says is pretty frightening
There will always be a voice in my head
To bring me back to the dark side again
It's Dark
It's Dark
I said it's Dark
It's Atlas yeah
It's dark
I'm running from a shark I'm too slow
Life's hard but death is scary got nowhere that I wanna go
I am smart but that's my curse I see the words that you never say
I don't wanna live today nah
The thoughts are pessimistic realistic more or less the same
The future isn't there but there's a coffin with my name
Blame is such a harsh term for shame
I wanna quit the game
All my heroes die of suicide so put a white lighter in my pocket
I will follow them with pride
Wish I would've made myself my only ride or die
Die I think it's my time
You'll be sorry no you won't
Too busy for my funeral
They'll bury me beneath the sand
Microphone still in hand
Planes will land my ex will f*ck
People will pretend they care
Write it on my coffin
Life's not fair nah
Suicidal thoughts creepin' under my skin
Got no reason to be sad but remember your love is sin
You might go to Hell for that the devil serve gin?
Or whiskey? That's my drink Hell yeah count me in
I got two sides love and hate
They are not on speaking terms
I got two brides they're the same
I got a type for germs
My heart broke and turned to ash
Passion turned to rage and rap
Soul was raped by Bitch and slap
F*ck the world I'm goin' back
Now I'm mad now I'm sad
Rapid cycles coming back
What do I do when I don't know
Where my own emotions at
Rage hate f*ck date
Always late smiles rare
Not a care and I share way too much
That is why you stare yeah
My owns thoughts drive me crazy
Don't call me baby I know you hate me
Think you know me but you ain't me
If you knew you'd never date me
You can fake it but I know
When you lie when you show
Me the real you or just a show
Getting high cause I am low
We can work no we can't
I am lost you are bad
I find myself In you like I might as well just be my dad
Lost my mind that's a fact
It's been gone since way back
Nothing left my heart is black
Understand that I am the rap
Understand that I am the rap