Astaar - Flowers Lyrics

The way you hurt me
Made me feel like I'm unworthy
Like less than deserving
Thought I was a bad person
Felt like I was cursed and
Didn't know what to do
So I stayed way too long
Just tryna please you
I was a fool
Took the abuse
Didn't know it was abuse
Almost lost my mind
I was more than confused
You had a ruse
You had a plan
Emptied paint out the can
And the picture you portrayed
Was full of glitz and glam
You could never understand
If you ain't ever been through it
Hold tight to your sanity
Life's crazy if you lose it
Almost lost it
But I got it
Surviving was the option
Know I'm here for a purpose
And so I choose to opt in

I stay
Awake at night
And I
I wonder why I
Go through these trials in life
I stay
Awake at night
And I
I wonder why I
Go through these trials in life

God said I'm chosen
Like Elsa was from Frozen
You took away my power
Then I withered like some flowers
Had my heart but you devoured
You left me bone dry
Emptied out my soul
Can't count how much you made me cry
I cried so many times
But you said everything was fine
Said we would get through it
But it was all lies
And the look in your eyes
Was like a black hole
Had so much eye contact
But I never saw your soul

I stay
Awake at night
And I
I wonder why I
Go through these trials in life
I stay
Awake at night
And I
I wonder why I
Go through these trials in life

Shits been hard
You can tell by my scars
Never saw it coming
When you stabbed me in the dark
But karma coming to you
It's the way of the law
F*ck with someone's heart
You get the pain you cause
We all got flaws
And we got beauty marks
That's why I can forgive you
I'm not always up to par
I came really really far
And now I'm fully charged
Transmuted tons of trauma
And out came a star

I stay
Awake at night
And I
I wonder why I
Go through these trials in life
I stay
Awake at night
And I
I wonder why I
Go through these trials in life