Aspen the rapper - Mask Off Lyrics

I didn't anticipate this
That I was gonna be here
Drinking beer, smoking cigarettes with the lowest paycheck
Man I thought that I would see clear-
Where I wanted to go now
What have I got to show now?
If life would slow down, and let me figure it out
I could acquire the know how
The know how to change my habits around-
And I don't even know why
I don't why-
I can't make a change.
I can't change my ways
Depression just runs in my blood and my brain
Is this chain my fate?
Maybe, or perhaps not
Whatever I plot-
Gets washed over by unkind thoughts
Like is life worth living?
Then I keep on drinking and I can't stop
I can't control my emotions-
And the feelings that I have and have fought
Nah, so I gotta take my mask off
Gotta escape this prison
I'm way late to dinner
Escaped the fear, but still living this chaos
So stop asking how the f*ck I feel!
I've battling my demons and this shit is real
I'd search for happiness, the box is sealed
Gotta leave it
How's that for some mass appeal?!

Let me take it off
Let me take it off
Let me take it off
Let me take it off

This is what I became from all the betrayals-
Dumb bitches n low grades
I'm sick of this whole thing
Waking up in the morning sore and-
Knowing that I'ma feel like shit for the whole day
Never knowing if I'm gonna make it til the end of the month
I wanna shine, yet I feel like I die for this low pay
I'm sick of this God wanting me to obey
But why do I say I'm fine when they ask if I'm okay?
I don't know man
That's why I got the music
I put my heart into this, but to you it's amusement
To me it's a gem
Gotta polish it clean or I lose it.
You know what I'm doing, how I'm living?
You don't know crap, you're assuming
You see Henny and diamonds on the gram-
But the real underground rapper life is in front of a computer!

Let me take it off
Let me take it off
Let me take it off
Let me take it off