AS WE GO - Not There Lyrics

Lets go
So you think
That you can just come back into my life
After all these years
And act like it's fine

You know I shouldn't expect anything less
Because you were never there and you won't ever be
And I don't know why I always believed that you would come back

Even though I don't care if you ever come back in
I won't let it change who I've become in life
Or what I will accomplish in my mind

Who am I kidding
I let you f*ck me up so bad
I don't even know what to think anymore or what to believe
Because all I hear are the voices in my head
And that's because of you
Or not
I don't know anymore
You've just been gone for so long
And I don't know if you'll ever comeback
Or why I would even want you to

But I won't let you determine who I've become in life
I have let you ruin me so much since you've been gone
I don't know who I am or I what will become

I won't ever forgive you for what you have done to mind
I don't know if I will not blame you