As It Is - Never Happy, Ever After Album Lyrics

Why should I stick around when all I do is let you down?

Can I ask you a question?
When you see my reflection
Do you see good intentions?
Where I see no progression

Speak soft, speak soft
Your forgiveness
Tell me lies, tell me that I deserve it
Speak soft, speak soft
Say I'm perfect
That every promise that I break is worth it

(That every promise that I break is worth it)

Why should I stick around when all I do is let you down?
I'm bad news, you can't deceive me
I'd never choose to be me

Can I give you an answer?
The beauty and the cancer
You're an always shining silver lining
I'm a f*cking born disaster

Speak soft, speak soft
Of your patience
Tell me how I'm distant and complacent
Speak soft, speak soft
Your frustration
Unacquainted with your expectations
(Unacquainted with your expectations)

Why should I stick around when all I do is let you down?
I'm bad news, you can't deceive me
I'd never choose to be me

Seems all I know is what I'm not
(Speak soft, speak soft)
I can't seem to find the words
To remedy how bad this hurts

Seems all I know is what I'm not
(Speak soft, speak soft)
When you're staring down a loaded gun
Can anyone fall back on love?

I can't seem to find the words
To remedy how bad this hurts
When you're staring down a loaded gun
Can anyone fall back on love?
Can anyone fall back on love?
Can anyone fall back on love?

Speak soft, speak soft

Why should I stick around when all I do is let you down?
I'm bad news, you can't deceive me
I'd never choose to be me

You've got everything to look up to from the bottom
You've got everyone else to compare yourself against
So forget it, you're forgotten in a world so disenchanted
Always asking, never knowing
Is it just you or everybody else?

We're the kids who are dead inside
But we're the ones who feel alive
We dream 'cause we don't sleep
We'll never get rest, but we got this

It hurts, and they like that
They fight fire with cheap shots and setbacks
They take cloudless thoughts and pristine hearts for granted
So forget them, they've forgotten you already
You can't help, can't help but ask yourself
"Is it just me or everybody else?"

We're the kids who are dead inside
But we're the ones who feel alive
We dream 'cause we don't sleep
We'll never get rest, but we got this

We're the kids who are dead inside
But we're the ones who feel alive
We dream 'cause we don't sleep
We'll never get rest, but we got this

I don't need your cheap shots and setbacks
I'm f*cking fine so go and take them all back
I don't need your cheap shots and setbacks

I don't need your cheap shots and setbacks
I'm f*cking fine so go and take them all back
I don't need your cheap shots and setbacks

We're the kids who are dead inside
But we're the ones who feel alive
We dream 'cause we don't sleep
We'll never get rest, but we got this

We're the kids who are dead inside
But we're the ones who feel alive
We dream 'cause we don't sleep
We'll never get rest, but we got this

We're the kids who are dead inside
But we're the ones who feel alive
We dream 'cause we don't sleep
We'll never get rest, but we got this

Fix me, I'm defective.
Stitch me up and make me feel new again.
Take all that's wrong and correct it.
Leave nothing that resembles this mess that I am.
I miss what never was with us, our fiction I constructed.
You're everywhere and all that I think about.
I can't even feel alone in my own head.

On my own again
I'm trying not to feel 'cause I'm feeling like the world forgot me.
On my own again
Yeah, you were always his
and all I ever was was sorry

I'm my own invention
An unfulfilled and underwhelmed work of art.
I'm desperate for your affection
It's hopeless, I know, but that's just who I am.
It's like my mind has mirrored walls
And you're standing in the middle.
I'm equal parts self-doubt and confidence
And I'm confident I'll die with every word I have left unsaid.

I'm just a reader
You're every chapter
Never happy, ever after
(on my own again)

What good is a life
When you live it ashamed?
I dream just to be halfway

But all I am is a product of wasted efforts and best intentions

If the only place I belong is an afterlife that I just can't believe in
At least I'll know I was born so not everyone lives and dies on their own

Woah,
This world I've torn apart
Left me drowning deep in doubt
Woah,
This fire in my heart
Is beginning to burn me out

What good is a life
When you live it alone?
I just want to be wanted

We do this while you start wondering if disaster is what you're built for

Will I slowly learn to accept
That I won't have more than a life on the sidelines
Or will I always be dreaming of liking life from the darkness alone.

Woah,
This world I've torn apart
Left me drowning deep in doubt
Woah,
This fire in my heart
Is beginning to burn me out

It's so hard to feel anything but empty
It hurts just to feel anything at all
It's so hard to feel anything I want to
It hurts just to feel
It hurts just to feel

Woah,
This world I've torn apart
Left me drowning deep in doubt
Woah,
This fire in my heart
Is beginning to burn me out

Woah,
This world I've torn apart
Left me drowning deep in doubt
Woah,
This fire in my heart
Is beginning to burn me out

It really hurts to know that I'm why your bed's half empty
Why you sleep alone or just stare up at your ceiling
And if you're a mess, God knows what that makes me
'Cause the weight from all my guilt is all too much for me to carry
I'm sorry

Am I all that you never wanted?
Or has it been so long that you've forgotten?
All we ever share are dial tones, dial tones
Take your caution or take your chances
[Album version:] I'll make you run and break in the same breath
[Acoustic version:] I'll mend your heart and break it in the same breath
All we ever share were dial tones, dial tones

I'm getting more of what I've always wanted
But becoming less of who I've ever been
'Cause I promised myself I'd never hurt you and I did
If you can't trust a liar, how can you trust me again?
I'm running out of ways to say I'm sorry

Am I all that you never wanted?
Or has it been so long that you've forgotten?
All we ever share are dial tones, dial tones
Take your caution or take your chances
[Album version:] I'll make you run and break in the same breath
[Acoustic version:] I'll mend your heart and break it in the same breath
All we ever share were dial tones

Forget me like you know you want to
Forget me like you know you have to
It really hurts to know that I'm why your bed's half empty
Why you sleep alone or just stare up at your ceiling

Am I all that you never wanted?
Or has it been so long that you've forgotten?
All we ever share are dial tones, dial tones
Take your caution or take your chances
[Album version:] I'll make you run and break in the same breath
[Acoustic version:] I'll mend your heart and break it in the same breath
All we ever share are dial tones, dial tones
All we ever share are dial tones
All we ever share are dial tones

More thought is less that's said
War fought inside my head
Hard times and valentines
Closed eyes and still frame minds
'Cause old thoughts hate modern words
It's not just the truth that hurts
Scars heal, but never stray
Will I see another day?
Another day

I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes
I'm starting to see my...
I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes
I'm starting to see my...

Before and aftermath
A lost cause down countless paths
Loose grips and handlebars
Dull glow of lesser stars
I fall short with every mile
With fist fights in single file
If all this just washed away
Would I see a brand new day?
A brand new day

I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes
I'm starting to see my...
I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes
I'm starting to see my...

I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes
I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes
I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes
I'm starting to see my oceans were lakes

You don't say what you mean
When you say I'm what you need
You tell white lies from your heart of gold
I'm not the place you want to be
I'm just the places in between
I feel complete but uncomfortable
I get distracted by the greener grass
But I always find it blankets paths of broken glass
I tell myself that I'll find my way back home
But getting lost is so easy on your own

My concrete's set, it's permanent
I'm stuck this way, now I can never change
No, I can't stop if all I've got
Is an empty heart full of broken parts

I don't say what I mean
I can't give you everything
I'm as stubborn as cynical
It takes more than love to keep you smiling
More than hope to keep you trying
It's hard to be inseparable
When we have separate principles

My concrete's set, it's permanent
I'm stuck this way, now I can never change
No, I can't stop if all I've got
Is an empty heart full of broken parts

I'm too far gone to change for anyone
I'm too far gone to change for anyone
I'm too far gone to change for anyone
I'm too far gone to change

My concrete's set, it's permanent
I'm stuck this way, now I can never change
No, I can't stop if all I've got
Is an empty heart full of broken parts

My concrete's set, it's permanent
I'm stuck this way, now I can never change
No, I can't stop if all I've got
Is an empty heart full of broken parts

My memories are still
So bright but, I keep the curtains drawn
I've never been like this
Or am I just, romanticising a person that's gone?

I can only take so much, before I spill my guts
But I'm terrified of letting you see what I'm thinking
But you left before I could
And if I could too, I would
Cause my mind's a frightening, and lonely place I can't escape at night

You dreamt yourself away
And time made your dreams come true
I hoped that you would stay
But miles mean nothing to you
(Turn back to me)
It's all my fault, and I know it
(Turn back to me)
It's all my fault, and I know it

I know that I deserve to be alone
I wrote myself out of your story
And I know I made it seem like I never cared at all, but I swear
I was always trying, and oh, God, did I try!

This was hard when you were still around
(You were still around)
How am I meant to survive this now
(Survive this now)
I'm so disappointed in who I chose to be
(Who I chose to be)
I've been having nightmares that follow me until I fall asleep

You dremt yourself away
And time made your dreams come true
I hoped that you would stay
But miles mean nothing to you
(Turn back to me)
It's all my fault, and I know it
(Turnback to me)
It's all my fault, and I know it

It's all my fault, and I know it
It's all my fault, and I know it
(And oh, God, did I try)
It's all my fault, and I know it
(And oh, God, did I try)
It's all my fault, and I know it
(And oh, God, did it try)
It's all my fault, and I know it
(And oh, God, did it try)
It's all my fault, and I know it

I can't help the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself
'Cause I swear that this is hell
The way I desperately try to save myself
'Cause I can't save myself

A single breath (in empty lungs)
That's all I got left (gasping for air)
And a bad idea branded in my brain I can't seem to shake
Another day (in tired skin)
I shed and fray (far from desire)
'Til all I am is textbook misery and my own mistakes (my own mistakes)

And as I've aged the only thing I think has changed
Is that the demons have moved from under my bed
Into the inner depths of my head
I can't escape the ugly things my mind creates
I speculate that they'll stay with my 'til the grave

I can't help the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself
'Cause I swear that this is hell
The way I desperately try to save myself
'Cause I can't save myself
Can't save myself

In broken bones (a half-hearted smile)
I feel at home (I'm proud of nothing)
I tend to get attached so quick to all I've ever known (all I've ever known)
But I don't seem to know a single f*cking thing that can save me
I'm my own worst enemy
Is there any hope for me?

I can't help the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself
'Cause I swear that this is hell
The way I desperately try to save myself
'Cause I can't save myself

I'm the boy who chose not to grow up and now I'm unprepared for anything.
Now I'm scared and I'm cold and alone because the world grew up without me. [x2]

I'm the boy who chose not to grow up and now I'm unprepared for anything.
(Is there any hope for me?)
Now I'm scared and I'm cold and alone because the world grew up without me.
(Is there any hope for me?)

I can't help the way my mind is hardwired to hate myself
Is there any hope for me?
'Cause I swear that this is hell
The way I desperately try to save myself
'Cause I can't save myself

Four walls and a door
We used to call home
The rest of our lives but not enough time till we're both alone
I try to steady my hands
You hurt to know why
I open my mouth and just trip over sounds
But my eyes speak goodbye
The silence tells us all we need to know

I breathe nervous and slow
Well your desperate for air
My eyes sink to the floor
Yours go bounce down the stair
In my tears you know I meant all I said
As every elegant word I said sinks in again

The silence tells us all we need to know (need to know)
Pretending's so comfortable
But I have to go for the last time

You challenge all that I think
Something is what made me it
I rephrase and repeat
Leaving nothing unsaid
Your hysterics aren't the last words you'd hear
As I stand to the your moment
Your four walls full of fear

The silence tells us all we need to know (need to know)
Pretending's so comfortable
But I have to go for the last time

We won't talk at all, we'll just wonder
We won't talk at all, we'll just wonder
We won't talk at all, we'll just wonder
We won't talk at all, we won't talk at all
We won't just talk at all, we'll just wonder what we still swallow when we shouldn't
We won't just talk at all, we'll just wonder what we still swallow when we shouldn't

The silence tells us all we need to know (need to know)
Pretending's so comfortable
But I have to go for the last time
The silence tells us all we need to know (need to know)
Pretending's so comfortable
But I had to go

Take care of yourself
But carry the whole world
Just forget that it hurts
From ankle to collarbone
And you think
And you bury your head away
And you sink

It's just you, the room, and the devil on your shoulder

Take care of yourself
But you wish you were like them
So calm and assured
Emotionally colorful
You're a fake
As soon as the door closes, you break

It's just you, the room, and the devil on your shoulder

Take care of yourself
But you're nothing but trouble
Just the damage of thought
You'll never recover from
How you love
A world you're only dreaming of

It's just you, the room, and the devil on your shoulder