The nightshade of an unspoken matter
Cutting through me like an internal stabber
Everyday I bleed out the shame
Why can't they ever just feel the same
Close, we were getting so close
Now I'm hurting the most
Tell me how did I do this to myself again
Close i was getting so close
Until he went ghost
Or am I only haunting myself again
Odds against me stacking higher and higher
All that I could feel was my heartbeat shatter
My mental strain pours down me like rain
His name was never meant to cause me pain
Close we were getting so, close
Now I'm hurting the most
Tell me how did I do this to myself again
Close we were getting so close
Now I'm hurting the most
Tell me how did I do this to myself again
Close i was getting so, close
Until he went ghost
Tell me how did I do this to myself again
All I did was try
Swore he'd never lie
Now its his turn to cry
Playing reckless games
With badly wired brains
A trap at every stage
All I did was try
Swore he'd never lie
Now its his turn to cry
Playing reckless games
With badly wired brains
A trap at every stage
Tell me how did I do this to myself again
Close we were getting so close
Now I'm hurting the most
Tell me how did I do this to myself again
Close I was getting so close
Until he went ghost
Or am I only haunting myself again