Arealius - Message to Gang Lyrics

On such a beautiful day such a messed up turn of events
Its crazy I hoped that this day would never come
Supposed to be so smart but in the end be looking dumb
Feeling messed up something like a bum
No disrespect to the homeless just keeping it real
Going through so many things it got me feeling ill
Ill in the head
Type of stuff that make somebody wish that they was dead
But nun suicidal but I can't take this to bed
The thoughts in my head and I hold it in
Tryna play it off smoove knowing I just pretend
Which was the case for my latest friends
We was posed to stick it out til the very end
But its crazy it felt off since it began
Began all them years back
I thought everything was cool until I felt attacked
See Brothers go thru things and then they bounce back
But this was something different so I guess that that can be scrapped
But it was gang against the world we helped one another
But nowadays we don't even call each other brother
We was supposed to ball together
Stick it out through the bumps looking out for each other
Man it was gang against the world we helped one another
But nowadays we don't even call each other brother
We was supposed ball together
But things just went down hill and we lost each other
Going back I always wanted to be on the scene
The homies doing it big and they did it as a team
Thought I would never be included that's the way it seemed
But it stuck to me like addiction to lean
Then came 10th grade my initiation
I tried to make being the crew my occupation
So then it happened I was down with the clique
Top dawg type of feel we would never slip
Rode as the fam and we did it right
Held each other down to make sure we was tight
Making sure we was good to make it through the night
Sticked it out together with all our might
Then as junior some things they took a left turn
Some things popped off and I was burned
And so I looked to the gang so they could help me out
But all they had to offer was just a f*cking shout
But it was gang against the world we helped one another
But nowadays we don't even call each other brother
We supposed to ball together
Put our pain in the booth looking out for each other
Man it was gang against the world we helped one another
But nowadays we don't even call each other brother
We was supposed to ball together
But things just went down hill and we lost each other
Since then on forward we hit some more bumps
But I played it off and just put on a front
And then our senior year came yea the main event
And they got tired of me and they made it evident
Cut ties with with me and the brothers was took
Stripped from me something like a stone cold crook
Almost 2 years washed completely down the drain
I addressed the problem but they saw it as a game
I let it out tryna make a point so they could see
But they took it wrong and was all against me
It took a left turn just tryna solve a problem
And they said they was done and I didn't doubt em
But in the end ain't no bad blood up in my veins
I stand by everything and will take what come my way
If I could go back its one thing I'll fasho change
Think it all through before joining the gang
But somethings they happen for a reason
Some people change over time something like the seasons
But you cant turn back time and you can't freeze it
They say the day is a gift and you gotta seize it
Cant lie the shit hurt man I lost a couple pieces
Pieces of myself and I might just be the reason
And it all popped off when it was our season
Damn I wish some things in time you could just freeze it
Message to Gang
Ain't no love lost