Wear Me Down Video (MV)

Try my best just to be sane
Hoping I don't get to blow my brain
There's no rainbow where there's no rain
Easier said no pain no gain
I'm not saying I got no shame
But it's harder without booze or cocaine
Used to be a beast but become so tame
Like a charizard that's lost his flame
We all got pain got dark days
For some it's a lifetime for others a phase
Tryna escape this life is a maze
As I see clear it starts to haze
Doing my utmost to find some ways
Losing count of the times I prayed
Love to sleep cos it hurts to be awake
Damaging to see acceptance of fakes
Mans in a standstill chasing greatness
This world stuck on holding my anus
No one knows it's not painless
It's not even about being famous
Just cos I don't wear shit on my sleeve
They begin to assume it's ease
Leave me alone let me breathe
It's wearing me down like a disease
Man I know shit's gotta give
I've got reasons I've gotta live
You won't see Ray jump off a cliff
Too good to waste mind on a spliff
Lord knows I been up been down
Can't leave shit without making a sound
Though I may be way hell bound
Wipe the blood get off the ground
Maybe my heart's beating different
Trust me I've tried keeping distance
When my word gets told you listen
I still go regardless of decision
Sometimes this world becomes a prison
Tainted heart but clean intention
I know I'm the one you been sleeping on
But I gotta keep on keeping on
Don't talk about streets you seen me on
Success is a bitch that leads me on
All good things come when you're patient
Don't worry about the time it's taken
Look at my life it's far too blatant
Could care less if they call me a mason
Or get pissed by association
Hatred I get is so f*cking ancient
Depending on me like it's aRaY nation
Got to get my people adjacent
Did a lot free it's time for payment
Get married now after years of engagement
Said I'll be famous they said I'll make it
Chasing dreams of a so called waste kid
As I eat someone's gotta chat shit
Go out their way to call me a fat shit
Usually fine on occasion can't hack it
See their face I just wanna smack it
Pissed if I don't do jack shit about it
Painful if I've not yet reacted
I'm the last word that's what the fact is
Else it bothers me to be acting
Why's everyone weighed in on my life
Not offered help judgemental advice
Look how heavy are the bags of my eyes
All of a sudden people just turn blind
No one gives a shit you're out your mind
That's when you see real meaning of kind
No one's burden other than mine
Killing me inside but I say I'm fine
Stomach was empty and so was my heart
Must be why I fell flat on my arse
Just want peace in a life of scars
Looking for light in a world that's dark
Broke for years but I'm still patient
That's the smallest complication
I could never be complacent
Now I'm grabbing titles like they're vacant