Maybe Video (MV)

Maybe I missed a few steps
Maybe that dream should just stay in my head
Maybe it's time to stop taking advice from that thing that I constantly feel in my chest, give it a rest
It's all been a mess, maybe I just need some time to reflect
I don't know what to do next
(I don't know what to do next)
Maybe I misunderstood the delusion
And just like a Rubik's it made me look stupid now I feel them looking at me like I'm clueless
I'm pleading my case but it's already ruined got nothing to show for the time I been shootin
No tellin how many more times I can do this
I know I love what I'm doin but lately it's hard to find Cupid
People relying on me to inspire
But these days if I'm being honest I'm tired
And I know my standards should prolly be higher but peace and some quiet is all I require
I play it off, like I'm nonchalant, when something go wrong
I already gave it all that I got
The weight of the world got me doin squats
I had to make sure the circle was tailored
We suited up if we do something major
Talks about life where we're gonna be later we know we destined for greater
But lately it feel like I'm holding us back I'm constantly asking for favors
I feel it building it building resentment and anger chillin with me prolly feelin' like labor
Lately I'm just gettin harder to reach but don't even worry and don't be concerned
I promise I'm fine, just taking some time to see what it's like in do not disturb
I hope it works cause I'm gettin worse I'm sick of the hurt
Don't know what to do with the pain
I'm losing control of my brain
Maybe I'm just an everyday rock and that's why I'm still not a Diamond
Maybe I'm sick of still tryin
Maybe I'm sick of still lyin
Maybe I just gotta disappear go on a journey and hope that I find it
I'm tryin not to get violent
But I'm sick of screaming in silence
Maybe the ink is my therapist, speaking for me when I thought that I buried it
Diggin' so deep in the dark that I'm scared of it some of the depths I couldn't prepare for this
Maybe each page is a session, and every session's a lesson
I hope that somebody gets this
(I hope that somebody gets this)
Maybe I'm just over stressin
Or maybe I'm over the unanswered questions
Or maybe I'm stuck second guessin' connection to sentences
I put my soul on the page got 26 letters there's only so much I can say
Maybe it's all been a game maybe it's all been a lie maybe it's all just some rhymes or maybe I'm wasting my time
Maybe I don't even love it but I'm in too deep so now I gotta trust it
And that's why I'm constantly trying to rush it to go make a"is" out of something that wasn't
Maybe that's end of discussion
I gotta go push that button
I know I'm running on fear
But I gotta make something clear
Who am I kidding I put in the years and the months and the days and the minutes how could I be finished
I ain't even started
Still so much pain I could harness
Don't need to tell you I want this
I'ma go get it regardless
Everyone workin the hardest
I'm here to show you what heart is