Apollo Mantikos - I'm Not Lyrics

Yeah, Hey, Whoa, Whoa
Flashback to my past life
Whoa, Hey, Yeah
Flashback to my past life
Flashback to my past life
Perhaps this could be my last life
I feel like it's more worse than last time
The devil keep playin with my mind
He said pop another and you will be fine
Keeps saying these pills will just keep you in line
Is it really? Is it a sign?
Cause every time I feel so low
And my mind is feeling so slow
And my heart doesn't know where to go
I look at the pills cause they'll help me forsure
They make me feel numb
Lemme be numb some mo
I sit in my room
With the door closed
Absorbing my pain
I feel so lame
At the point where I don't even remember my name
I have no shame
Don't try to stop me
Please stay in your lane
I love em so much
They help ease the pain
Steady suffering
They say loves a drug
Believe it must've been
Every time I'm with you I just wanna sin
Now I'm popping the pills once again
Losing my thoughts so I have to fend
Fend for myself
Thought if I had you
I'd need no one else
But now I can tell
I was clearly nothing
You just brought me to hell
Got my mind going
I just wanna yell
You stole my soul
And you put it for sale
I know why we failed
We didn't connect
Now I can tell
It was something that I tried to hold together
You would change way quicker than the weather
Sometimes I do wish that I never met her
But I did, so I guess i have to let her
Hey
Wish I would've known right from the start
That you would take this way too far
Just to bring me down and tear me apart
I told you my feelings
I loved you a lot
She said are you good?
No I am not
No, hey
No I am not
No, hey
No I am not
No, hey
Yeah
Wish I would've known right from the start
That you would take this way too far
Just to bring me down and tear me apart
I told you my feelings
I loved you a lot
Can't you understand
That I am that man
Everything we did
We had a f*cking plan
F*ck we had a plan
Now everything is f*cked
Now my feelings I keep em so tucked
Because of you I'm feeling so stuck
And it's like you don't give a f*ck
You cut me open
Sliced me up
Took my heart
Stomped on it
You don't give a shit
Am I on your mind
Or do I not fit
You are the reason
Why I'm so lit
Cause you broke my heart bit by bit
Broke that shit f*cking bit by bit
But I don't know why you feel the way you feel
But you just can't say that I f*cking just killed the mood
Baby you knew exactly what to do
It's like the 3rd time but I still had no clue
I guess you just took me as a fool
When you hear my name you say "don't know that dude"
If it gets like that then ima say f*ck you
Always wasting my f*cking time
Why did I have you on my mind
Now every time you call Ima press decline
Wish I would've known right from the start
That you would take this way too far
Just to bring me down and tear me apart
I told you my feelings
I loved you a lot
She said are you good?
No I am not
No
No I am not
No
No I am not
No
I'm Not