Apathxtic - On and on Lyrics

I was lost man
And I didn't have no guidance
And peace wasn't something that I ever felt inside me
My homie had a piece and man he didn't feel shit
Want to be real but he didn't know what real is
Wanted to shoot but he didn't wanna kill
He was jealous of my life I was jealous of the thrills
We would smoke up drink up head out and steal
I was doing it for fun but he was doing it for real
It's like my dad told me, nah he wasn't ever round
The money never came in my mum was working out
How to raise us sober
Type of shit that you appreciate when you get older
Traumatized as a kid though I don't admit it
There was one dude who had really lost his shit
He came round smashed up the house blood on the ceiling
Broke all the windows with his with hands he was spinning
Man he smashed up the house but he didn't touch my room
Guess through it all he didn't wanna hurt a child too
But he did though, it's hard to come to terms with that
At least the ground was solid huh, then it cracked
Life goes on and on
Don't hate yourself too long
You'll find where you belong
You got this shit stay strong
Life goes on and on
Don't hate yourself too long
You'll find where you belong
You got this shit stay strong
I never really planned nothing in my life
Uncontrolled events is why I am here tonight
If I never had no pain then I would never be a writer
Depression had me lost until I used it to inspire
In my music
Wish I could the say the same about my friends
Some of them gone but their memory never ends
They thought they'd be forgotten and be lost in the wind
But they ain't
So you should go and check up on your friends
I wouldn't be here without mine that's real shit
They'd rather you reach out and tell em how you feeling
-I'm an emotional man but I got friends that understand
I'm really empathetic but apathxtic is the brand
It's how I used to feel cause I didn't wanna be hurt again
Had a knife to my face because of my own friends
Trust issues type of shit I couldn't comprehend
Until I met my new homies real ones til the end
Life goes on and on
Don't hate yourself too long
You'll find where you belong
You got this shit, stay strong
Life goes on and on
Don't hate yourself too long
You'll find where you belong
You got this shit, stay strong